It’s taken me a long time to make this post… I’ve dreaded it because it’s been so long and sometimes I don’t know what to do with myself. I could go into a long pity-party about that but frankly would rather not.
I just have to start fresh and new! I am, after all, only human. I admit, though I love writing, I get so distracted by other things in life; work, friends, family, fun, etc.. sometimes I forget I have a little blog floating out there somewhere. And when I do remember or it crosses my mind, I wince with embarrassment or shame because I feel I’ve failed at it, and don’t know what to do…
Should I keep going and try again?
Am I being silly?
It’s true that work’s picked up, I’ve moved, etc… thangs ain’t always been purty, either. No sir. Sometimes, it’s have been just plain tough.
Just because I haven’t blogged in a while, doesn’t mean I haven’t done anything productive or have let all things go. But I have missed blogging. It’s fun and I can be me. It’s almost like writing in my journal, only I keep in mind all content goes on the internet and one must be careful sometimes, in making posts. Depending on what it is, anyway.
I’ve not made it a priority. When I first started I was super excited. I had high hopes and dreams for it, and goals I wanted to meet. But it was almost like a cutting edge. Several different occurrences happened and it seemed that it’d be farewell to my blog forever. I even thought of just starting a new one, and leaving this one behind. But I don’t think I will. After arguing with myself about it, I’ve decided to keep going. I must. I can’t just throw away all my efforts because of….
..what was it again?
So I haven’t blog in over 5 months…. oh well. I can’t beat myself up about. I just have to pick up where I left off and keep going… after all, I did put some work into this blog. It was hard for me to even start it! I had stupid fears about it, which I now find utterly ridiculous.
*sighs* The things I worry about sometimes….
Right now I honestly feel like I’m babbling but, oh well. I just had to write just to write this time. Let it out. Breathe….
You know, I actually feel better now 🙂