Already the time has come for us to get ready to embrace a brand new year.
As I write this, the day is dismal and cloudy.. cool and chill at a temperature of about 51F. It is threatening to rain, and no doubt will do so later on in the evening.
There are roughly 4 days left til the new year… 4 days left of 2017. I can’t believe how fast this year has gone by and that soon, we’ll be welcoming a brand new one.
The year started off with a bang for me. I spent most of my time away from home – I celebrated this new year in Switzerland with my dear friends. It was hilarious wishing my family back in the States a Happy New Year when they were all 6 hours behind.
That was a first.
And then at the end of March I flew home, spending time with my sister for a few weeks before she flew out to Oregon, where she’s starting a new life. Summer passed by both fast and slow for me. I spent a LOT of time not only at the gym (working out and exercising several times a week) but also researching on getting a new job..looking online for out-of-state jobs).
Which brought me eventually to Colorado, where I made the memories of a lifetime. I treasure this year, always will, too. So much happened for me. Leaving a year behind is like finishing a journal for me… it’s like, I keep going, but then at the same time, I also feel like I’m closing a chapter of my life.. like, I’m shelving it away and can’t ever return to it. It’s an odd feeling I get every year.
So as much as I am indeed looking forward to the next adventures ahead in the new year, I also can’t help that nostalgic feeling get either, and wonder if the new year will be as good as the this one.
This one has brought me so much happiness and joy, so much to be thankful for and to love, so many people that have blessed my life and made a difference. How can this possibly be replaced? How could it possibly get better than this? What do I have to look forward to?
Truly, I believe there will be things next year of 2018 that will impact me just like I had this year, but I can’t know for sure.
To be honest, I find myself turning to God these last days because I’ve been trying not to overthink and worry so much about what lies ahead. For I know that God is watching me every step of the way. He has not forsaken me. He loves me and cares for me as a daughter. Deep down I know this.
And yet, I worry still. I am anxious and drive my mind insane.
I should really stop this, all of this worry and anxiousness that grabs ahold of me and just breathe, trust God, and allow whatever to happen to happen in its own good time. For I can’t control everything. I only have so much control over my life, but there is a great deal I can’t control and this is where I have to step back, trust God, and allow him to direct my paths.