4:23AM reads the time right now. I am awake… Like, WIDE awake. It is the day of my trip. I will be flying out to Colorado today and I won’t be coming back to my family until the fall of this year, perhaps in October. And that is quite a ways off.
My phone alarm was set for 5 AM but whenever I’m excited for something I always wake myself up early… It is almost impossible for me to sleep in.
I was laying here in the dark thinking about how my first day back in Colorado is going to be, and trying to imagine my first days back at work. I have gotten several texts from several different friends over the past several days, as it seems that everyone is anticipating my return and that makes me glad that they are looking forward to seeing me 😊
And then I was also replaying yesterday’s events… Yesterday my grandparents came over to celebrate my mom’s birthday with my family. We decided to celebrate her birthday for days early since I will not be here for her birthday…
It was a very lovely day and we could not of asked for more beautiful weather.it was almost like both the goodbye party as well as the birthday party. At one point we all went outside my pictures I guess you could say they were both birthday pictures and goodbye pictures. Kind of went through the day and a bit of a daze, but I think everyone else did too. We all couldn’t believe it very next day I would be taking off in it would be the longest we have ever have separated.
I have never been away from home for so long, but I am not scared it is quite a long time but I know…I know that I can handle it.
My mom was actually watching me pack up last night… or rather, watching me repack… I was showing her what I was packing and getting her input on a few things and she told me that even though I’m going to be gone for a while, she has a feeling of the time flying by rather quickly.
Deep down I think she is right. Even though it’s quite a ways off, I know she is right.
Well, I better stop for now… I must get ready to head to the airport. I will write more later 😊
15:34 Mountain Time – so I’m waiting here in the Denver airport for my friend to come and pick me up…
I should’ve been at the YMCA by now but due to a very delayed flight I wasn’t able to make it during the time I thought I would. I have until 4 PM to check in at the YMCA HR office… Being that it’s a 2 hour drive or so, I don’t think I’m gonna make it. Which means that I won’t be able to check in.which leaves me wondering where am I going to sleep tonight? However I will choose not to worry about it… Despite the fact I’m starving hungry I have a headache and my feet hurt I just want to get out of this blasted airport.
Taking off in Jacksonville
Hello Chicago. Not a fan.
Officially sick of being on the airplane – get me off!!
Trouble is, of course there are plenty of places to eat at the airport… I’ve already collected my luggage and I have a lot of luggage I don’t feel like wheeling around I’m exhausted! So I think when my friend comes to pick me up I’m just gonna ask if we can get a drink somewhere… And energy drink or something… That’s another thing: I hardly drank any water today 😑
A couple of days later: So I am finally settled back here at the YMCA of the Rockies.
Yesterday was my first day back at work, which surprised me to be honest for had not expected to be starting work immediately. I’ve been really tired all day due to lack of sleep and took some time to rest after I got off work.
The day before (my arrival day) I didn’t get back until after 8 o’clock last night… My ride finally came and we stopped for dinner at Red Robins since I had starved myself all day by not eating anything other than some pretzels on a United Airlines flight.
But I couldn’t, for the life of me, concentrate on eating. My stomach was hungry but my mind was elsewhere and I felt jittery and anxious. So despite a beautiful looking salad sitting in front of me, I boxed it up and took it to-go.
It does feel good to be back here and now that I’m settled I have a lot to look forward to. It’s amazing how many people remembered me! While I was at work, they would come up and give me a hug and say, “I didn’t know you were coming back!” I saw so many familiar faces today and my heart happy inside.
Today I worked a lot in the kitchen and made the most scrumptious food ever – tarts and this homemade bread with feta cheese and tomatoes topped with a bit of basil. So yummy.
And on my back to my room today, I couldn’t help but pause as I caught my breath.. gazing at the snow-capped mountains.
It feels great to be surrounded by the mountains again. I have missed looking at them. I really have.
I have this feeling though, and unsettled feeling and are usually have this kind of feeling whenever I travel and move to another place… I miss my family. I miss my home. And I ask myself “what am I doing here?”
But I know I have made the right decision…Still, it’s always an adjustment for me. It has nonetheless been overwhelming and I feel very drained and tired from it all. I don’t like feeling out of control but I must learn to realize that things will not always turn out the way I expect them to. I know it is for the best that I am here. I am very much looking forward to the new adventures I’m going to have here in Colorado. I just have to stay focused and not worry so much about things I can’t control. I don’t know what lies ahead on this adventure and I must simply take one day at a time and enjoy the moments I have here.